Mommy Guilt

It has been a crazy couple of weeks with all four of our birthdays being in a month of each other; Disneyland/San Diego, 3 classes, working, Rylie's dance etc.  Well last night as I had dinner on the stove/oven, sitting at the table doing homework while Liam was crying, pulling on me to pick him up and only wanting mom, I began thinking am I a bad mom?  Yes the number of hours I'm away from them are few and far between, really only when I have to work or have something to have to do with work. The time I am taking for school to do homework or tests while they want me to play or Liam is crying for only me to hold him though, I began thinking if it's worth it or should I postpone school until they are in school full time?  I know in reality that there is never going to be a "great" time to go to school while raising children but it still doesn't help my guilt though.  Last night Rylie said, "Mommy I miss you." and she was laying right next to me :(

Then this morning while feeding Liam breakfast, I realized my gosh tomorrow he is going to be 1 years old, a whole year has gone by already!!!  I thought he is going to be a year and I'm sure there are details of this year I have forgot, his baby book isn't even closed to being finished, his 1st year calendar is missing milestones and goodness Rylie's first year scrapbook is in the closet taunting me as it still needs finishing touches!!!!
I wish I had more time! Time to spend with them without having to do school stuff, time to get their pictures scrap booked and baby books done, time for my husband, time with friends!  I realize as a busy, working mom of two that "Father Time" is not on my side but to make the best of the time I get and to prioritize the important stuff.  I know I am always going to wish I could do more but showing and telling my children how much I love them and love being their mommy means more than doing.
I will probably be up late tonight though trying to get Liam's baby book up to date and pictures organized to start scrap booking!!!

All for now from this proud, busy, feeling guilty Mommy!!!